Down but not out.

So, as  I said on Monday, my test results are all good and my specialist said yesterday that I could not be doing any better.  I should be ecstatic but i'm actually probably at my lowest ebb since all this started.


The Beckham look has started to get patchy and i'm really really tired.  Every time I look down at my left arm I see this hornet's sting burying itself into my skin and pumping poison into me.  I think the thing is that although there is an end in sight, there's still a long way to go.  It's like that final couple of kilometres in the half marathons that i've done.  You can see the finish line, you can see everyone else crossing it but your lungs are burning and your legs feel like a tonne each and you just want to be there immediately.


I'll be there soon.


I've written a little ditty too....


Just for now.

Please don't come and visit me
I'd prefer it if you don't
I'm not saying please unfriend me
I'd be grateful if you don't.
But it's just I'm not at my best right now
It's all a bit of a strain
And to be honest with all these treatments
I'm looking a little bit plain.

Don't worry though, everything's fine
And I'm up for a full recovery
But just for the next few weeks
Im going to be a little bit wobbly.

My gatekeeper will be in touch
That's if he hasn't already
There'll be a spreadsheet with your name on it
Letting you know when I'm more steady.