The first few started coming out this morning.. It started with my beard hairs . There's one stuck to my thumb as I type this out. It's just sitting there like a slug that won't be flicked away. Partly because it's stuck fast and partly because you can't bring yourself to fully touch it's slimy repulsive body.
But I suppose this is the start of it. I was left with hands caked with strands after putting some wax in later on in the morning.
I was told it would take about three weeks after treatment started before I lost my hair. I'm just over two weeks in now.
For the past few days I've been randomly tugging at my hair and feeling smug that all I felt was pain. Only 70% lose it so there's a chance.. And nana didn't lose hers. There's another chance....
Every tiny tug today produces a few more strands.
I don't want this to happen.
(imagine that said in a slightly strangled way with lashings of helplessness and you're with me now.)
Thanks for sharing the moment. Now let's move on.
I suppose the practicalities are twofold. I'll need some new headwear. I'd thought about sorting this a few weeks ago but desperate hope triumphed over reason; and I'll need to think about whether to get a buzz cut to minimise the effect of it all falling out.
I've always wanted to try that style so lets make hay and all that.
And on a better note. The final stage of my first cycle of chemo finishes today. Cue hot sweats and headaches but who cares. Strike one against the little bugger.
But I suppose this is the start of it. I was left with hands caked with strands after putting some wax in later on in the morning.
I was told it would take about three weeks after treatment started before I lost my hair. I'm just over two weeks in now.
For the past few days I've been randomly tugging at my hair and feeling smug that all I felt was pain. Only 70% lose it so there's a chance.. And nana didn't lose hers. There's another chance....
Every tiny tug today produces a few more strands.
I don't want this to happen.
(imagine that said in a slightly strangled way with lashings of helplessness and you're with me now.)
Thanks for sharing the moment. Now let's move on.
I suppose the practicalities are twofold. I'll need some new headwear. I'd thought about sorting this a few weeks ago but desperate hope triumphed over reason; and I'll need to think about whether to get a buzz cut to minimise the effect of it all falling out.
I've always wanted to try that style so lets make hay and all that.
And on a better note. The final stage of my first cycle of chemo finishes today. Cue hot sweats and headaches but who cares. Strike one against the little bugger.
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